sound of life

do you feel comfort with the situation around you? if your answer is yes, congratulation for you. but you have to be aware with those situation, coz you’ll be stuck in a rut (well..hopefully you won’t
i’ve just read some article, a journal of a state owned company, about change and comfort zone. this is a competition era, for those who are pokey and don’t wanna change, he/she will be crushed by the change itself. but what a pity…some of them feel they’re already in the comfort zone! just like me
well, i have no meant at all nor judged any company/anybody if i say that most people who working at state owned company feel like that.
trap in a zone of supposed comfort determine what we think that we can and cannot do and what we cannot even bring ourselves to try. subconsciously, we build massive barriers rock all around mind.

inside the reefs, the water feels quiet and friendly, but outside we think it’s going to be rough and stormy

yeah..that’s what I (and maybe you too) feel now, what have worked for me in the past marks the boundaries of my comfort zone. once dealt with something successfully, tried the same response next time, and found it worked again, feel so useful. fears, get scared and try to avoid all mistakes are olwez dancing on my mind. sometimes I know what’s going out there, but I don’t have any bravery to take the risks. that’s why probably I miss out on most opportunity (hmm…really?!? I don’t think so
then the question is : what I need? CHANGE!
yes…change my mind, change your mind. we MUST go outside that reef, coz there’s no other way. we must go into the wider world of our unused potential, then make our own way, doing the best we can and quite often getting things wrong (wait…I think it’s not necessary to get things wrong. Let’s do the best and get things right! so we won’t stuck in ruts

let’s learn how to do it.

first, do something – almost anything – differently, and see what happens. change whatever is holding us back, and get on with a fresh view on life, we’ll find that there’s a marvelous world out there. we’ll see, if we try it
second, don’t think too much before taking a risk, then take the risks (do you know, this is my biggest fear :(. the easiest way to get into a cold swimming pool is to jump right in (I even never get into swimming pool since 18 years ago!). the same can be said for taking risks. hesitating will only psyche you out.
well, the last and the key point to break out the comfort zone is…JUMP! Jump big and don’t hold back!
uh…this is the hardest thing I guess…

* keywords : culture, change, risk
** source : here

Celebrating my mum’s b’day, my mother in law’s b’day and also celebrating indonesia’a mothers day, here it is my fave songs, sending to my beloved mums…

the first song…
this song remind me about an old film, i forgot the title, starring : widyawati as a diplomat, and her beloved husband, marina alexandra, and teuku ryan
what a romantic and touched film…

Mother how are you today?
Here is a note from your daughter
With me everything is ok
Mother how are you today?

Mother don’t worry i’m fine
Promise to see you this summer (note : i promise to see you this holiday, i won’t wait till summer, coz i really2 miss u mum…)
This time there will be no delay
Mother how are you today?

I found the man of my dreams
Next time you will get to know him (note : u already know him mum, he’s ur son now)
Many things happened while I was away
Mother how are you today?

and the second song…
sung by boyz II men

You taught me everything
And everything you’ve given me
I always keep it inside
You’re the driving force in my life, yeah

There isn’t anything
Or anyone that I could be
And it just wouldn’t feel right
If I didn’t have you by my side, oh

You were there for me
To love and care for me
When skies were gray

Whenever I was down
You were always there
To comfort me

And no one else can be
What you have been to me
You will always be

You will always be the girl
In my life, for all times

Mama, mama you know I love you (I love you)
You know I love you
Mama, mama, you’re the queen of my heart
Your love is like tears from the stars (Yes it is)
Mama I just want you to know
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
(Yes it is, yes it is, oh yes it is,
yes it is, yes it is, oh)

You’re always down for me
Have always been around for me
Even when I was bad
You’ve shown me right from my wrongs
Yes you did

And you took up for me
When everyone was down on me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on

There were so many times
Looking back when I
Was so afraid

And then you’d come to me
And say to me
I could face anything

And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You’ll always be, you will always be
The girl in my life

Mama, mama you know I love you
(You know I love you)
You know I love you
Mama, mama, you’re the queen of my heart (You are)
Your love is like tears from the stars
(Your love is like tears from the stars)
Mama I just want you to know (Mama I just want you to know)
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul

Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinkin’ about you
I’ll never go a day without my

Mama, mama you know I love you
(You know, mama, you know I love you)
You know I love you
Mama, mama, you’re the queen of my heart
(The queen of my heart)
Your love is like tears from the stars
(See your love, your love is like tears from the stars)
Mama I just want you to know (Mama whoa, my mama, mama)
Lovin’ you is like food to my soul
(Loving you is like food to my soul)

Oh yeah, yeah
You are the food to my soul
Yes you are

send a hug for ur mother please…
let us olwez keep in touch with her, please call her everyday
coz her love never end

after the tear drops… then the rain is fall rite now
alhamdulillah…maybe this is the answer of the despondency. this is a sign that we’re blessed, hopefully
whether i still duno the answer of ur question, i still confuse about how i feel, i know Allah olwez be with us, guide us to the straight path soon

the fallin’ rain is just like a dessert on the sahara. shower the earth with the awaited clemency. when the wind blows, u can feel the heart beat so respendently.

i can’t wait to see that time, when it goes to the peace on earth. when u are here with me

eight october two thousands and eight…
getting closer to the end of year. it means that i should make a step forward soon, whether i will stay here or move to the hectic city. it’s not easy for me, of course. leaving all the memories, leaving all the ‘lovable’ job and friends.
honestly i’m still confuse about my job. i don’t want to leave it all, but i don’t want to stay the same too. so..what should i do?
no one can foresee this life and nothing is simple in this life. all of us are looking for good life, for success, for love and for peaceful life

we fight a little when we ask for more. why don’t we fight strongly to get what we want?

yes…maybe i should fight strongly to get what i want, for love, a better life, and success

september datang kembali dan waktu 3 tahun sudah berlalu tak terasa. masi inget saat2 pertama kali menginjakkan kaki di bumi soerabaja yg panas untuk memenuhi panggilan hati. duuh…di kamar yg kecil di sudut rumah yg itu air mata ini tak sesaat mengucur deras. inget bapak, ibu, kakak, serasa saat2 bersama itu seakan hilang dari raga ini. masi inget jg gimana kuatirnya ibu karena aku harus menjalani puasa Ramadhan sendirian, tak tersedia makanan, es.. hmm..that’s makes me realize how much they love me.. thanks mum..

masi inget saat harus kerja 6 hari, lebih dari 40 jam seminggu, berkutat dengan angka2 menjemukan dan keluar dengan alasan yg kini tak jadi nyata
masi inget jg abis itu kerja cuma telpon mlulu, dan ‘kerja bakti’ untuk ‘cinten’ pelit berinisial D. hmm…itu sudah berlalu
detik ini alhamdulillah aku sudah banyak diberi anugerah oleh-Nya. bisa merasakan begitu banyak nikmat, berusaha mengabdi untuk negeri, dapat keluarga besar yang menyenangkan dan sayang sama aku.

tiga tahun yg lalu jg..aku selalu memandangi dan takjub akan sebuah gerbang besar yg angsa2 di atasnya selalu disinari temaram lampu di malam hari. detik ini alhamdulillah aku sudah tinggal di dalamnya. tak pernah terbayang sebelumnya.

warna warni perjalanan hidup selalu menyenangkan dan jadi kenangan, meski banyak halangan dan rintangan. coz we have to realize that

The path to our destination is not always a straight one. We go down the wrong road, we get lost, we turn back. Maybe it doesn’t matter which road we embark on. Maybe what matters is that we embark.

ya Allah…ternyata waktu sudah berlalu begitu cepat tak terasa
jam pasir itu sudah berbalik 3 kali
tapi ribuan kali nikmat telah Engkau berikan
alhamdulillah…

i believe that there must be a lot of happiness after this pursuit
i believe that Allah olwez gives the preciously gifts for me, for u, for all of us

Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up
-James A. Baldwin-

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies
-Aristotle-

Falling in love with love…is falling for make-believe
-Lorenz Hart-

last nite i was looking at the ceiling of my little room. then i realized that within two weeks later i will leave this room, with all memories inside. i still remember the first time i came here, i thought it was the appropriate one, although the room doesn’t have window even a ventilation. day by day, year gone by, i enjoyed every moment and every nite i slept. i never thought that someday i will leave this boarding house and move to another boarding house or my own. since the first time i came this boarding house full of students who rent some room, then they all leave. afterward, another students came into the boarding house in turns. then i feel so close with my neighbor, next my room. we have quite much things to love in common, especially girl things i’m gonna miss u much, dear
well, i hope i’ll enjoy my next room, my own little sweety home, a place i’m dreaming for living in to build a warm wedded-life ahead
note : that’s not my room

udah nonton film ayat-ayat cinta?
pasti tau dunk scene dimana fachri
mengucap akad (ijab) untuk menerima nikahnya aisha…tepat di atas
kolam yg berada di tengah flat tempat tinggal aisha.
sesaat
kemudian, taburan bunga menghiasi indahnya pernikahan diiringi musik yg
mengalun menggetarkan setiap relung hati yg dipenuhi cinta
tak
lama, alunan suara rosa, menyenandungkan "tercipta untukku" bersama
ungu, sang pemilik karya indah itu. membawaku pada ingatan akan
peristiwa yg sama beberapa bulan lalu, di sebuah lobi hotel di
surabaya. sepasang insan mengikat janji suci dalam balutan nuansa
putih, disusul dengan hadiah ‘istimewa’ dari ‘the groom’, alunan indah
tembang yg sama, "tercipta untukku" . tepukan meriah segera menggema di
seluruh ruangan, sampai lantai 5 hotel tersebut. tak ayal, ‘the
bride’nya tersenyum haru bahagia, dengan sinar mata yg tak lagi bisa
ungkapkan dalamnya rasa bungah itu.
sejenak aku ikut larut dalam bahagia itu, tapi kemudian tepekur, bertanya kepada batin ini, adakah ia juga tercipta untukku?
harap itu pasti, tapi keyakinan itu, hanya kepada Allah aku berserah.
perjalanan ini bukan hanya sebentar saja. ada jalan berkelok dan menikung, ada ego yg tak lagi terkendali.
tapi
mungkin begitulah Allah mempertemukan kita, membimbing kita menjalani
perjalanan panjang ini. semoga Allah pula lah yang menjadikan kau
"tercipta untukku"…

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I’d still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You’re all I need
My love, my Valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You’ve opened my eyes
And shown me how to love unselfishly

I’ve dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn’t love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You’re all I need
My love, my Valentine

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all I need
Is you, my Valentine

You’re all I need
My love, my Valentine 

as a human being, it’s normal if i say i’m not the perfect one. why? because i’m only a human. ;D confused ha?
let the story begin…
yesterday, i got a precious lesson from my daily life. it’s about frensip.
if i ask u, what makes a fren?
what is ur answer?
will u answer : a fren is someone who will tell u everything?
or someone who will never lie to u?
or maybe someone who will never leave u in the dust?

if
i ask myself, then my answer is someone who takes me as i am, will
never lie to me, will never prick me on my back, but….somebody
pretended me like i’m nothing.
now i know…what goes on behind the closed door, and i want the door to stay closed!

but after that i realized that i should look at the mirror, look at my reflection.
then thea said that what goes up must come down. hummm…tengkyu very much thea…
i’m not the perfect one